Summertime is the perfect weather for outdoor Kebobs while listening to electro music :) Life is really good, let 'em know!
Instead of using falsies, drawing lashes on with eyeliner is a useful way in situations when there's a time rush or overall feeling lazy :)
'Cause after all this time, I'm still into you. I should be over all the butterflies
But I'm into you"
Listening to "Still Into You" and thinking about someone very special I met in Montreal and from than..well lets just say I can't stop thinking about him. I don't even know where it began..but knowing myself once I like someone, I just get so hardcore emotionally attached. I don't even trust myself anymore with "love" because I just go through too many phases. I tried to keep it in but I can't! I even told him to my parents the first night back, which is something I rarely do. I know I don't know him that well and people saying I just like the "image of him" but so what..do I really need to see the negative side of everyone, I just want to remember the positive :) When I like someone I just want to protect them & never let them get hurt, so I always send them some good wishes and prayers. I hope he's receiving it :) On the last day to the airport I just got a wave of depression knowing the distance that's going to come between us..and on the plane I started feeling really bittersweet so I wrote this note on my phone while literally trying not to cry...I don't even know why I was like that sigh...
"Sometimes it's better to let go immediately if you feel for someone. Without opportunities, there is also no chance for disappointment. Liking someone always brings momentous joy followed by waves of envy or greed to possess. For me, I guess the mental stimulation is enough to keep me going. If I liked someone and I made a move, confessed and actually got to know them entirely- I'm scared they'd never be how I thought of them in my head. I guess this is avoiding reality...but at the same time promises that are not made can never be broken, right? I tend to give up immediately instead or actually experiencing it out for myself, instead preferring to envision in my head my ideal image of them. It's odd how many attachment phases I go through...but each time it is so vivid it almost drives me crazy with obsession, but passes as strongly as it comes.
In Montreal I met you ___ times, even though we are from completely different backgrounds and morals I found a little bit of myself in you. I love your personality and the way you believe in the optimism when there are so many things that gets us down. It's surprising how friendly you are despite the physical appearance you may give off. I am in awe of how you are able to be so goal orientated and make something of yourself despite hard circumstances. I love that we both share the same views on ______ and how refreshing it is to meet someone that can actually successfully apply this to their life. Despite me not talking much in front of you, I have gotten to know you from afar. You are a really great person and I only want good things to happen to you. You are such a kind,goal orientated and motivated person. I believe meeting you was not a coincidence. I know I may not be your type. But that is not very relevant because I realize after all this time that liking someone is just wanting the best for them to be happy. I hope in this world we will get a chance to meet again, I will always think of you when I go through bad times. I wish I could tell you this in person but it is only something I want to keep feeling. As Murakami said, it is better holding someone in your heart as they serve as the oil in a lamp post to keep one going through dark times~ I just overwhelming want you to keep experiencing the good. Ill always keep you in my thought :")"
Did this a few days before I
left for vacation..so behind on everything ahhhh. Anyways, Park Sora is one of my favorite Korean models and
Ulzzang! I just love how she looks so well put together with a minimal makeup
look, and I especially love her dreamy eye glaze and style. This is my version
of her makeup with her signature eyeliner look and of course hair always parted
to one side! Enjoy :)
P.S. I wish I could get eye colors surgically implanted
or something. After wearing circle lenses you just never look at your regular
eyes the same I guess, how nice would it be to have some piercing aquamarine
eyecolor :')
My outfit of the day inspired by STYLENANDA/Park Sora for the bold colors she pulls off with that flawless face of hers! The editing is inspired from her STYLENANDA video as well, I just love how she works her charm in front of the camera in such a dreamy way with alot of color flashes and motions :) So here is my take!
On my second last day, we tried the Montreal bagels as it was apparently famous. I found it mediocre but liked the designs and idea of the toppings and options. Than we met up with some new friends and watched a soccer match between Montreal and Dallas. Nobody scored but I was very intrigued the whole time, my concentration levels when watching sports is hardcore unlike when I watch movies with friends and end up on my phone. Than we went to the famous vegan place Aux Vires for dinner and I had a Dragon Sandwich. Throughout the trip we been to many vegan places but I just find myself craving junk foods and meat more and more. Even though the idea is healthy...I just cant imagine myself making some Kale smoothie and substituting steak for tofu burgers. On my last day before airport, we finally tried out Schwartz the famous smoked meat place. It was a nice end to the trip with a city specialty lunch :)
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Overall I rate this trip 8/10 because it taught me alot about myself as a person in terms of my limits, how I cope living without family and my preferences and such. I am proud to say I never picked a fight with any of my friends, I was in a good mood 95% of the time literally. I learned that I am a generally a very happy person except when people went out of their way to make me mad. I had a fight with a rude sales lady at a store and another with one of the guys we met that was not acting respectful. But asides, I learned that family is everything! I may have survived a month on my own but that was without any bills to pay, always eating out and being a tourist and no school. I think it's better I stay close to home. Also, I don't mind doing my own thing and also don't like taking risks and "seeing how it goes", therefore I think I trust myself on vacations more now :) I also read alot on Budhha practices throughout the trip and when I came home, I felt more peaceful and mentally relaxed than ever. I also learned not to take my house for granted because food in the fridge and a bed to come to...that's a nice feeling after being out for so long.
I'm going on another adventure next week to Washington and this time I'll try to make pictures with my DSLR! Even though I brought it to Montreal, it was just too heavy and hot in the weather to carry around. My friends are going to be back from Montreal August 1st so I wish them the best while they enjoy the last few days there :) This summer is going amazing!
"LIFE IS GOOD, LET 'EM KNOW!"
