CATHY HUANG

Did this today, my favorite animated movie of all time. Never used these pencils with water before so decided to go all out and do it my style, hence the range of colors ~

Medium: Fabercastle Pencil Crayon Watercolor

Completion time: 3 hours

Went with my friend yesterday downtown for a day of fun and lots of girl talk ;) you know, philosophy and love life and school. Went for my favorite greek and macaroons. These days have beeen fabulous!!!

Is it me or do I look super Korean today...like I know I always get mistaken for korean but people tell me these days I look more and more?? Anyway, wearing all new stuff ^___^

Part of my shopping- louboutin-like spike loafers and black boots! The spikes are seriously so sharp and today wore them to dinner with my boyfriend and ended up with bloody ankles cuz I keep crashing the spikes into my skin. Talk about pain...there's spikes at the back too! But so beautiful and cool :)

Finished this 2 weeks ago, took me 2 days because I did it in between a trip. My fingers almost died sketching and shading.

Medium: Charcoal Pencil

Testing out my dad's new DSLR, chillax weeeek.

Today is just a stay home day, and I was thinking why I'm so angry at my bf 24/7. Honestly why am I always so dramatic? It has literally exhausted me and gave me nightmares. I find these days after that longass entry I just stopped caring. If he comes back and doesnt sustain anything anymore I would not feel a thing. I guess it's like stretching a band too much until it snaps and there's none of it left, because that entry was like my "breaking point" and after 2 nights of reflection I just kinda stopped and "moved on" with life. I'm not trying to be some superior shit and rise above it, but why am I so negative all the time? After all people are only humans and he has given me alot and been there when nobody else has, through all these school days and everytime I dont have a place to stay or eat they always welcomed me! And what kind of boy can buy me a dog again and raise it for that many months? Who delivered food for me at midnight and  waited for 5 hours just to drive me home?  I couldn't even raise the dog I wanted myself for a few days. So now I've come to realize I AM grateful for the time and moments we spent together, he has given me alot. I think people are always afraid to say and think too many positive things about someone, and for every positive aspect they could probably list 3 times more negative ones. That's what the world has become..but why should I be apart of it?

People, places, structures are UNSTABLE. "this too, shall pass" and everything is a cycle. Highs and lows, but they are just highs and lows and it happens. That is just, frankly part of life. People walk into my life and share with me some moments that sometimes sustain longer than others, and that is all. There's no need to be vile and hateful if people stop acting the way you want them to, because eventually everybody leaves. That is NATURAL. So I just wanna say, whatever happens I will always remember that window of good times with someone and wish them the best with life. That is when you realize true peace instead of repetitive blaming and addictive clinging. We should all be like a deep lake where it is forever still at the bottom no matter what winds, currents and weather occurs at the top. Every other action, whether to get back at someone or belittle and make fun of them is a result of egoic needs and ultimately destructive. Do we want that? No. Think of everything that once made you smile to help you enjoy everyday. That is how it should be done. 

Foolishly went to North Vancouver with friend yesterday in an attempt to climb the Grouse Grind MOUNTAIN. Yes, MOUNTAIN. an 1,000+ M stair after stair climb up steep rocky trails with no end. I made it 1/8 before feeling like I was about to pass out. Honestly overestimated myself because of my previous outdoor experiences that were much harder and brutal than this. But that was when I was fit back then, just out of swimming club. I honestly haven't exercised in a year and all I did was eat and have people drive me everywhere. I blamed myself from the beginning of climbing the grind why I hadn't started to build up my endurance weeks before...but now I'm determined to conquer it. I not only had cramps and nearing blackout, my mind kept telling me "screw this, you can't do it..what did you sign up for..just quit!!" and thats what happened. I hate myself for never preservering..if I get even a little tired or challenged, I just QUIT. Honestly I never knew how weak I become until that moment, I had it in me to keep going but my mind kept quitting. So frustrating. But I will go up there myself if I have to and finish to the top next time.

Aside from that we went downtown eating and ocean viewing in our hiking gear... embarassing when everyone else is in their Louis Vuitton and high end clothing hahaha. Had some amazing Greek food and alot of laughs anyway.

Been eating out almost for a week straight, went for my favorite Japanese crepes at richmond with my friend 2 days ago than sushi town with my fam and favorite "Awesome Roll" and "Spicy Salmon Sashimi" !!