Straight eyebrows and red lips, my new favorite makeup ♡♡♡♡
This is my first special fx makeup! I did it on a whim because I planned 2 looks for halloween: broken doll and zombie makeup. I adapted this from Michelle Phan's tutorial but I made it more gory. This was done with liquid latex, tissue paper, black and red acrylic paint, BB cream and matte dark plum/black eyeshadow. Im happy with how it turned out, and I love how makeup can make me transform to anything I want. So versatile! I want to keep doing special fx makeup as it has so much possibilities and more advanced than your typical sugar skull look. Here is a step by step and the final result! 
Finally, a good "blockbuster" movie that suits my taste. This movie is not for the faint of heart, it has many dark components and the cinematography was very well done. After the 2.5H of watching this, me and my friends found ourselves talking about this movie for the rest of the way home. The storyline centers around the troubled marriage of Amy and Nick Dunn living an upper class and seemingly perfect life. One day, Amy disappears and Nick is accused of murdering his wife but it turns out she framed her husband for murder due to failed marriage and all the emotional distress he caused her.
This movie is set up in the first half and convince viewers that the husband is a psychopath, set out to kill his wife and divorce her for her finances. However, the second half reveals a much darker side to "Amy" whom goes under disguise after successfully setting up a "staged murder" crime scene. This includes everything from drawing her own blood to splatter on the kitchen floor, writing a 300 page diary and befriending the right people that would come to her defense. Everything is impeccable and ingenious. After she gets robbed of the money she carried for her "hideout" she turns to her ex lover of whom she later murders to go back to her husband.
This movie raised the question: are psychopaths made or do they exist inherently? Was Amy capable of going through all this if her marriage went well? It also reminded me of the truth that: we really don't know who anyone really is. People are like scripts, only revealing what they want to but everyone has underlying ulterior motives. It also reminded me of the saying that "true love was never there if it goes from love to hateful attack in a second." I think marriage is just a socially constructed concept, a term of expectation of which two people rely on each other because they are bounded by some kind of institutional paper. With all these high expectations attached to your "husband" or "wife", it is sure to end badly if they fail you in the end. It's strange seeing how happily married they were for 2 years and how Amy finds discrete, subconscious ways to make Nick hers for life.
Also, found this movie to be extremely sexist. It portrays woman as vulnerable, in which they are swept off their feet into marriage, overcompensate by giving their finances and trust to the men, get ignored by the men and than go insane. The movie reiterates the fact that women always blame themselves when the man betrays them. Amy didn't think she was the "cool" girl until she escaped after framing the murder and that's the reason she attributed to Nick's affair with a 20 year old student. The women diminishes her self-worth and begs for anything to save the marriage like having a kid. On the other hand, the man blames the women. If he takes her out to a nice dinner and spoils her only to face rejection, the women is the "bitch". I think this movie reminded of the fact that there are some things in this world only you can give yourself, if you can't get it from someone else it doesn't mean you have to "punish" them. People are insecure in nature and often go into relationships/marriages without getting to know the person or even themselves. Overall, I feel this was a brilliantly shot movie with many cultural meanings and implications behind it. Finally, a movie to make me think. I'd rate it 9/10 only because I had to sit almost 3 hours in the theatre.
This product to me is a once in a while product, not an everyday
routine. I use a tone of conditioner every time I wet my hair.This is a rich
light pink cream conditioner that matches great with it's shampoo counter-part.
This smells like real fruit! This works much better on my hair than other
Garnier conditioners and leaves my hair soft and shiny! This doesn't completely
fix frizz, and I don't know if it fights against humidity. I use a large amount
per shower to work up a good lather so this bottle goes twice as fast as other
brands. I usually turn to beauty gurus on youtube for hair advice so I'm keen on seeing reviews for this product. I colour my hair to be spontaneous so I want long lasting colour, but sometimes the weather ruins my hair and makes it frizzy. I give this my shield of approval #colorshield
It's strange thinking back to all the events, people and places I been to until this point in my life. To some people- I was inept, worthless, and inadequate. To some people, I was there entire world and they once said they couldn't live without me. Some genuinely loved my presence connected well with me. Some completely didn't understand what I was about and would dismiss me. I think this leads me to the conclusion that I don't really know myself, because there is no solid self. I present different sides of me to everyone, some are good and bad qualities but at the end of the day it doesn't make me a better or shittier person. I think one purpose of life is finding out who I am. I know people say that in all these books and inspirational hipster movies, but I think as I grow older I am finding out who I am more and more. Sometimes I don't like what I see, sometimes I love the progression I see. Sometimes I just want to shrink back, cease to exist. I think its all a part of what it's like to be living. I would like to believe that life is giving me the people and things that I need exactly to experience what I need, and that god is kind to me. I think despite all the things I did, he is still by my side because even though I lost so many important people along the way- he never let me be truly alone. There was always someone by my side, to make me feel significant when everything seems so insignificant. It's just so strange thinking to the multitude of different meanings that I hold for people I meet. Some will be with me a long time, others a short while...it's so weird. Like I'm living several lives of different skits while still being me...sometimes it can be quite overwhelming but also so straightforward and simple at the same time.
